I believe that I spent my childhood like most other children. I just wanted to fit in.
I did everything I could to be like those around me, even if it meant compromising my personality to do so. I stayed quiet, lost in the background where no one could find me. I dressed like everyone dressed; watched what everyone watched; talked like everyone talked.
I played sports that my friends played even though I hated them. I went shopping with my girlfriends, talked on the phone for hours, and fawned over cute boys until I couldn’t take it anymore. I wanted to scream it from the mountaintops for everyone to hear. I wanted them to know and like me for who I really was, not for who I was pretending to be. I was scared, though, as any teenager would be and it wouldn’t be until college when I could finally embrace who I really was inside. At that moment when I finally met others who, like me, had been hiding their true identity for too long, we came together and screamed as loud as we could.
I don’t want to play sports or go to the mall. Dammit, I want to read books and watch Buffy the Vampire Slayer! I want to engulf myself in the fantasy worlds of Middle-Earth and Westeros and fall in love with the Winchesters, not the Hiltons or the Kardashians! I want to be jealous of the die-hards who dress up as Harry Potter for the release, not snicker behind their backs.
I want to be proud that I’m smart. No more will I hide my straight A’s and speak like an imbecile! When did it become ‘cool’ to dumb yourself down? We must stop this sick and twisted trend! It took me twenty years to embrace my nerdom; twenty years to shed the skin of who I had been pretending to be my whole life.
This is me … the real me.
Are you hiding the real you? Stop it. Don’t let anyone force you to be something you’re not. You’ll only regret the time you wasted pretending to be someone else. Always let your true colors show. Will some people not like it? Will some people make fun of you for it? Perhaps. You have to learn to not care. You have to learn to let those people go. They don’t deserve to be in your life if they can’t accept the real you. Embrace your inner _______, whatever it may be.
Scream it from the mountaintops. I want to hear your roar.
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